6 months

July to January that is a long time but here I am again. I read through my previous posts and I said Luke could be "the one" I laugh at that because not even a week after I posted that Luke began going out with one of my best friends. Why do I even try? I know boys don't like me like a girlfriend. I'm just the friend whose shoulder you can cry on.

I will give you an update on my life in the months in between my last post and now. I went to a place called Inlow and found that sometimes the people who love you the most are the ones who you just met. While I was up there I also realized that what people told me was true, boys are not worth all my time and tears. In that moment I made a promise that boys can wait and I am not going to pursue any relationships until 07-07-07 why that specific date I don't know that’s just when it is. On a completely different note I stayed in Albuquerque instead of moving down to Las Cruces to start college. That was a very big decision for me but I did it and now I have decided to stay another semester up here in Albuquerque. My sister’s appendix ruptured and I lived at the hospital with her for 10 days. However, she can’t have surgery until February so they can clear out the infection.

That is all the big things that have happened since my last post and as always you don’t have to understand you just have to know it’s true.

Just another example of how stupid I am

It has been a very long time since I last wrote in my blog but here I am to give an update of my life. Even thought it has been a while my entry is still about the same thing boys and how stupid I am. Most recently the boy is Luke. People in cyberspace if you haven’t noticed from my other blog entries I fall for boys really hard really fast. I see a boy, he is nice to me, he’s funny, really the fact that he even notices I’m alive and talks to me, and I fall. Luke was no different he gave me the time of day and I fell flat on my face. You know how on TV how people magically get beautiful over the summer that is kind of what Luke did. Luke and I go to the same camp every summer and last summer he was nothing remarkable this summer I saw him and he was beautiful. Luke has always been one of those people who will talk to you no matter who you are so he talked, I fell. This year I hung out and talked to Luke more than I talked to anyone else, it wasn’t because I was totally in love with him but it was because he told me that I am one of the only people who he remembers from years past. Me and him both are sad that almost no one in America cares about the World Cup, we also both hate the stereotypes that people have assigned us, he has been branded a jock for the fact that he plays multiple sports and I have been branded an emo kid just because I listen to sad music and own a hoodie. Him and I have seen each other grow up and it makes us sad that this was our last year to be able to come to this camp. I will miss sneaking out of the cabin at two in the morning to look at the stars, I will miss the boys singing My Girl, I will miss being able to leave my everyday life behind even if it was only for a week. Camp may have just given me another boy to stress over but this boy may be the real deal. And as always you don’t have to understand you just have to know it is true.

Prom

I just came from prom and it was amazing except for one thing. I was tring to be prom queen and I didn't win. I knew deep down that I wasn't going to win but it still really hurts. All this past week I have worn a crown and a sash that says Vote Christi Queen. I am the only canidate who did this I am the only one who was creative enough too. I wanted this so bad I wanted for once in my life to be recognized for something. I want to cry it makes me very very sad. My husband cut his hair and that also makes me sad but he still looked beautiful. On a brighter note prom was awesome I felt beautiful all my friends looked gorgeous, we danced like there was no tommorrow. It is my goal thay before I graduate I will have at least hugged my husband I have 25 days. Lastly you don't have to understand you just have to know its true.

do you ever fall for the ones who you have no chance with and face agony everyday when you see that person or everytime they walk by your heart skips a beat and you think maybe this time they will talk to me. they never do and you just continue to let your heart be broken. I think it is funny that i always fall for these guys you would think i would learn. i wrote a post that made me sound like a jerk and then i write posts like this i am so confusing. So you don't have to understand you just have to know its true.

I'm done

I finished Beauty and the Beast and it turned out to be amazing. One thing that is not so amazing well maybe it is, I broke my finger. I fell flat on my face and broke my right pinky. If you were to lick my finger it would be like skittles because you would have tasted the rainbow. I went to the cast party last night and it was flippin' awesome. I learned that David snores rather loudly I learned this while sleeping next to him on the floor of our stage manager Christine's house. I know you don't want to hear anything more about B & T B so I will sign off. You don't have to understand you just have to know it is true.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Ok I'm in a play and we just finished show 2 of 4 and I am tired but I need to update you on my life . I bought Gaston and Anastisia flowers. Have you ever had something and 1 piece falls off and next thing you know the enrire thing has unraveled. Well my life sometimes feels like that I mean 1 thing goes wrong and then everthing else goes wrong. Have you ever been head over heels for someone and they barely know you're alive. I just hate when that happens. Well you don't have to understand you just have to know it is true.

What a tall, dark ,strong, hansome brute.

I'm in love with Gaston. You don't have to understand you just have to know it is true. That is all I have to say right now.